Thursday, May 26, 2005

Blogging effects

In this first three months of blogging on tai chi and multiple sclerosis, I notice a subtle shift in how I think. I am more attentive to my practice, listening more carefully to what my bodymind tells me. Consequently, when I listen I am less performance driven. I practice, listen and later on reflect and blog.

The more carefully I listen the more I realize how performance expectations create a mental fog. I have difficulty listening if I am focused on performance.

However, I haven’t been able to give up all performance goals. Perhaps, that will be the next letting go. There are only small steps towards a meditative practice.

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